Oh my!

Well the school year has begun! I am slightly behind, but things are slowly starting to get in order. Grades are first, then CSA, and SigKap. I need to be a teacher so bad! Well I am going to Hoboken with a couple of the sisters on Friday and who knows if love finds me in the Boken. But the theme of this post is love. Love finds you at your worst or your best. It does not matter. However, since I have not watched myself lately, I get diff. reactions from people and I know that it would be easier to get guys if  I looked the way I used too. I still get guys but it is a lott harder than normal. So not only that, but I feel so sluggish and such. So I have gone back to my healthy ways and feel really good about it. I love fruit and all that healthy yummy stuff! But back to the point, love doesn't discriminate. Don't feel that it is because of how you look is why no one likes you. You have to be happy with yourself before you can be happy with someone else. You cannot depend on them for happiness. It is impossible to be happy that way!! SO take care of yourself and love yourself and love will find you. Get pretty for you and dress up for yourself! Also, when you aren't looking, it hits you in the face. TRUST ME! I am the expert on this. God made us all perfect in his eyes, all we have to do is find/walk into the person that sees us the same way. It is truly easy and will happen naturally!

Teaching

I am going to add to this post tomorrow to add more to it because I am tired now, but I just want to say that I honestly cannot wait to be a teacher. I will bust my bust hard to become a teacher and it will work out. I know this is God's plan for me. I get excited and just want to be in my classroom already. This is my plan :)

FYI

My love of the theater is coming back

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubBN38hL9KY

My life!

So nothing super interesting has been happening lately.First full week fo school passed and I think things are going to go well. I am going to get myself together and focus hardcore on my grades. The roomie asked me to be a small group leader and of course I will! Anything to help out. I don't like when other people are stressed so I want  to help. I broke my phone and was phoneless. I was so paranoid becasue I just wanted to talk to my mom and I couldn't. I almost cried like a dork. I am home now for the night because I got a bit sick. I am getting princess bedding tomorrow and am superrr excited lol :) The boy makes fun of me for my sorority and princess obsession...whatever -_- but anyway....

Lately I have been super duper into 90's dance music. Especially "Call Me" by Le Click. I think it is just such a good and fun beat with lyrics that actually mean something in that girlie "bounce around in your car and pretend you have a boy to sing this too" type of way. Also have going into a little of my rock phase again just to have some substance. Oh I still wish I was Carrie Underwood....I am having an identity crisis. For now I leave you with "Call Me" :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=geO_ioeZ_iE

If more females would sit down and be ladies, more males would stand up and be gentleman. TSM.

I normally do not think a TSM is worthy of something deep. They are funny and I relate to most of them in a cute way. But this one strikes a chord. Last night I went out and just noticed the girls whoring themselves out like it was nobody's business. Boys where dragging drunk girls into rooms, making air-thrusting movements behind them. It was complete mayhem. Now I do not want to be a stick in the mud. I am all down for a good time, but when it becomes to the point of puking girls and vulgar disrespect...I have a problem. People need to just relax and realize their self-worth. Girls need to become ladies for a majority of the day and understand that it is okay to have fun, but not to the point where reputations are made and boys thing they can disrespect you. I used to think I wanted a guy to grab me on a dancefloor and want to hook up with me. That is so the opposite of what I should have been wanting. I know now that if they don't ask your name and remember it an hour later...not worth my time. I am not saying I am high and mighty, but courting and talking to a person are so minimal nowadays. I honestly am worried for my future children. It is okay to speak of the actions you did the night before and think it is okay to have sex with everyone in sight. News flash, it isn't. I just wish people would grow up a little so that boys do not come up to me and assume I want to join their pant's party. If we grow up, then they will too. Sort the girls from the ladies and the boys from the men.

Short and Sweet...well it was going to be

Mass today taught me that you have to look after yourself, but also look after others. Try to prevent their sinning because it can be a guilty by association thing come judgment day. I totes get that and understand the meaning behind it. However, I will always go with my gut feeling for the rest of my life. I was asked to go out tonight. Last year I would have said ok. The year before that would ahve been a "hell yeah". But now? I didn't want too. I didn't even want to get dressed up. All my worst things came true. Not worst but def. things you don't want happening to you. Obvi all my hot and skinny friends were hit on by all the guys. I wanted to puke. So I drank a bit after telling a Brother that I was just going out to dance. I needed to forget my insecurities. I honestly don't know why I did it, God, but I did and I am sorry. I regret it completely. I wasted time, walked around, and only got into parties because of my friends. My roommie (best person ever) ended up picking me up because I was so mad and angry. I got shut out of a room at a frat house. I am in a sorority! WTF?!  This is why Jersey is dumb...so dumb... I am fed up with myself for not being at hte point I wanted to be at by now. If I was, my night wouldn't be half as bad. But having my friend tell me I couldn't have food that I wanted? That was the last straw. She has he love life, her social life, and other things. I just have my grades and my personality. I just wish I could have some positive things in my life. As I say that I have to stop. I do. God blessed me with awesome roommates, friends at CSA, a family to die for, and perfect health. So what I have to work hard to lose weight? I have worked hard so so much. This will keep  me going. Keep my motivation. I will obtain this and the GSA program. I will win because I refuse to fail.  Tonight has taught me that despite the setbacks, good things happen afterwards. Yu work hard and you will achieve. I am going to work hard. I will achieve. And it will not be revenge. It will not be satisfaction. It will be happiness. Also, the roommie said that the fact these guys don;t even want to know you name when they spit game...not even worth it. They will never realize how much you are loved, how much people care about you, and how awesome you are. Words to live by. She is so wise. I will remember this. I am starting to realize what I want and when the time is right God will send him my way. Rambled again...oh well...always tomorrow!

Pictures

So I realized what better way to express myself than with pictures? I have a Tumblr so I took the ones that best define me. More will be added in other posts but these are for now :)

loving the perfect  Disney princess and believing I can still be one

 pretty much.

 

my sorority and hp? yup.

 

my motto in working out and just in life

loving preppy style

drama is my middle name

I wanted to put a picture of some sort of rock image to represent my toughness. When I find the perfect picture I will post it. Oh! FYI. I will be posting other things than my personal stuff. This is just a place for me to write and become more open. 

Everyday

Everyday you can learn something new about yourself. I learned today that I do not need/nor want to go out anymore. I jsut want to relax at home or around good friends and have a drink or two and just have great conversation. The need to get all dolled up to walk around for an hour trying to find a party is a little old. Once 21 comes around then actually going to a designated bar will be worth my time. But for know, I am grateful for the things God has given me. Great friends, a safe living environment, and a motivation to do things. Even being blessed with a family that goes above and beyond for me and loves me is more than I could ever be thankful for. Each day that I am back at school reminds me that things are different and no need to worry about the past. Enough of the the insightful stuff haha! My day consisted of taking 6 hours to do my laundry ( I kept forgetting), going to taco bell  (no bueno), crafting that table my dad got for me, organizing my COB, and watching extreme couponing with the roommie. Being back just gives me so much energy. SO much in fact that I spent 100 dollars at Target and returned 51 of it because it was all the most stupid things ever. I do not like going over 30 bucks when I have to buy stuff. I like staying in budget because I worked hard for my money and would like to keep it for awhile. So spending that much on stuff that was pointless really got me upset. Anddd I can't find a broom anywhere!! I have to go to bed,bath,and beyond to get a broom because no one around here has one! It is so annoying. But I rebought Sweet Home Alabama because I lost it :/ How is it that Target does not have Legally Blonde? Are they dumb?! My dvd has been played so much that it is now skipping haha! As my latest crush would say "such a sorority girl!". He is too cute by the way. Apparently he is oblivious but ehh...it happens. He just seems like a safe and adorable guy that has strong faith and has a good head on his shoulders. I need to get back in the game. The bonfire tonight was fun. Hanging with good people and good company is what I want my life to be centered around. Not the toxic crap from last year. I need people who can help themselves and are liek me. I need to take care of myself, not everyone else. I just ask God to watch over everyone's spiritual, mental, and physical needs esp. my family, friends,the pope and the clergy, and anyone in need of prayer. I trust him with everything even if I don;t know what that is.

Junior Year

So it is my Junior year of college. A little intimidating, but nonetheless I feel like I jsut may be able to do it. I tried moving in last Sat. but Hurricane Irene was posing a threat to my campus so I figured I would stay home with my mom and nonna while my dad went to his job at the high school to control the flooding. Turns out...I stayed until Monday. My house lost power form around 3 am until 1pm. I was reading HP and all of a sudden the lights went on and relief flooded me. But anyways, my house had a little bit of flooding, but otherwise it was ok. Nonna was a bit tense, but once she had power she was good to go. My mom proved yet again why I am the luckiest girl in the world to have such an awesome mom. I will dedicate a post to her around her birthday. So I decided just to try to leave on Monday. It was fine traveling until I got to Ryders Lane! It took me an hour to get form the Sears shortcut to my Newell! Annoying doesn't begin to describe it. So I go into my Newell and see how cute my roomie decorated things. My stuff was still all packed up so I still had a bit to do. All of my roommates are honestly a blessing. I thank God for finally giving me some peace about this year. This is the big semester where I need a perfect gpa for grad school. I want to be a teacher so bad and I just hope I focus and study hard. I can celebrate later. Living with these girls does not seem to pose a threat of not focusing. I feel like a good person and my faith in God will become stronger because of them. My roomie said that sometimes God comes to you through other people because you are not ready to hear him yet. I believe this. After all, she is the sister I never had. But I digressed...Our newell is so sharp looking! It is a mix of all our personalities and my bed is comfy and I just love coming home to a clean place finally. Compared to last year....I can't even go there. As I am writing I just feel a sense of calming come over me. I rather type that write because my thoughts come fast and my handwriting is crap. My roomie likes to journal so I think I may keep that too because it just feels good to type about my day. I can post at any time and it is for me. I could go off bible quotes or anything. But anyway... my roomie and I are quite a bit alike and I dig it. I just feel like this year I have been blessed and things will go good. Every day this week I have been at CSA and it has been so much fn. I am getting closer with the people and just having a blast. I sort of have a thing for two of the boys but probably nothing will happen. We will call one the director and the other the nurse. I told God that I rather grad school than a love life, but if he so decides to give me both, I am not complaining. This writing thing sorta does help...my rommie is really catching on to something here with this writing stuff. I feel the real me showing through. You know I got asked to go out tonight? Din't wanna. Not because I do not feel pretty enough, but because I saw no point and thought it was so  dumb too. Rather party at a close place than campus hop, being all drunk and cold.  So also with the sorority, I have to make the video and this COB. I am going to knock that COB out fo the park it is ridiculous. I will prove to everyone in that damn sorority why I am the best at what I do and why I deserve more credit than I deserve and did not deserve the crap I got last year. This summer was a bit of a flub, did not lose the weight but did work a lot.I made my money and for some odd reason really wanted to be southern sorority girl. :/ still wish it!  I want to go back to the gym and just get things in shape again. All this rambling makes me want to compose a list:

Goals:

1. get above a 3.8 GPA (I know I can do it, just can't be lazy)
2. lose 45 pounds (sounds intense but I can do 20-30 by Christmas. I want to be beautiful again and even more confident)
3. pray more (become closer to the Lord and live the life he set out for me. I realize I am not perfect. But I am starting to become ok with that. I just want to be perfect in His eyes. )
4. if given to me, have a bit of a love life (i would like to date and be wanted. it would be nice)

So there you have it folks! My personal blog is being shared and I will keep it real. God Bless <3 Night darlings!

Well then...

I have not posted in months! But I am determined to blog this year. I want to remember my junior year of college because I am sure it is going to be great! I will be posting my rants, positive things, random things that catch my eye, and just the daily livings of me. Stay tuned :)

Motivation (I used this word a lot)

So I have been going through some exciting stuff! Mixers,New Member bonding,  school work, and Initiation right around the corner! I finally get to craft for my big and will post pictures of how the crafts come out.  But today, I just want to give myself a relaxing day after meeting alumnae and having a New Member meeting. School work can be done bright and early tomorrow! As for tomorrow, I am starting up the gym again. I have formal at the end of April and want to look pretty :)  I hate how I gained some college pounds and they need to melt off...the healthy way of course! I figure if I blog about it, I will be more motivated to do it (he he).

Anyways! I decided that I need to get my motivation back. I get motivated in several ways. For studying, I put on Legally Blonde, a determined sorority girl who succeeds in Harvard Law? Talk about motivational! I watch it and take out my pink highlighter and go to town on my studying/homework. A nice candle is always good too. Lately I have been into Moonlit Sands from Yankee Candle.  It is the Beach Walk and Midnight Oasis scents combined. Totally soothing and motivates me to work hard so I can relax during the summer.

For the gym, I make a classic playlist of upbeat songs from the Top 40 hits and other songs that pump me up. My list jumps all over the place! Here is a taste: The Call by The Backstreet Boys, Songs Like This by Carrie Underwood,Take Me Home Tonight by Eddie Money, What is Love by Haddaway, Don't You Want Me by Glee (such a cute remake!), Blow by Ke$ha, and Till The World Ends by Britney Spears. The playlist is random with all songs that make me want to groove on the elliptical LOL. It gets even more weird, but for my own embarrassment I cut out a lot of my 90s dance music and 80s pop and dance hits.

Basically, being motivated is getting in that mindset. From movies to music to an intense candle, anything can trigger you to want to do your best. THe important thing is that slow and steady wins the race, so relax and loosen up and make whatever you have to fun! That is certainly my key to getting motivated :)

You've Got Mail

I just stumbled across the cutest trivia for You've Got Mail.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0128853/trivia

"Joe Fox's grandfather mentions that long ago, he briefly shared a pen pal romance with the store's previous owner, Cecilia Kelly (Kathleen's mother), and that they only communicated through letters. This may have been a reference to the movie's predecessor, The Shop Around the Corner (1940), starring James Stewart and Margaret Sullavan, or possibly the famous book and the movie 84 Charing Cross Road (1987) of the same name, with Anne Bancroft and Anthony Hopkins as a female customer in New York and a male employee of the bookstore at that address in London."


This piece of trivia is the cutest to me. The Shop Around the Corney makes perfect sense. I love old movies, especially musicals <3


Random post, I know, but it is just that type of day! :)

Sydney White

So I found this movie in the $5 dollar movie section at Big Lots. I have a small thing with finding favorite movies for 5 dollars either at Target or anywhere. Anyway, as I am watching this and reflecting on my new member process, I am realizing the hazing that the sorority Sydney wanted to join did and how it honestly does not help to make stronger bonds. I would never trust Rachel, the president of the sorority, after she shot a water gun at me and told me to "stay the way i am". I fully support non-hazing member processes and am so happy my chapter does so. This movie is so cute though! Taking the snow white fairy-tale and putting it in a college setting is too much! it is a simple movie that will not win awards or anything, but it is a nice movie to watch with a bunch of girlfriends and a bowl of popcorn :) I love happy, girly movies so this works for me...plus the punch of empowerment is insightful :)

Relay for Life

I am so excited  that my university is partaking in Relay for Life. I am doing it this year with Sigma Kappa. I am so happy to bond with my sisters for this overnight cause that is honestly so fun when you are with your friends. For those who do not know,  here is what is said on my university's event page,"The American Cancer Society Relay For Life is a life-changing event that gives everyone in communities across the globe a chance to celebrate the lives of people who have battled cancer, remember loved ones lost, and fight back against the disease. At Relay, teams of people camp out at a local high school, park, or fairground and take turns walking or running around a track or path. Each team is asked to have a representative on the track at all times during the event. Because cancer never sleeps, Relays are overnight events up to 24 hours in length." No matter where the event is held, a Survivor's Lap is done, The Luminara Ceremony, and a Fight Back ceremony.

With friends and family, this event is truly fun and raises awareness for this horrible disease. I would greatly advise you  to participate in one if this event happens by you or even start one if you want! I cannot say how much is means to me to get to do this again.  

Here is the site to learn more! 

http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY11National?pg=informational&fr_id=29268&type=fr_informational&sid=1030

So sorry my darlings!

Ok I think here are my problems:
I had midterms,
I am sick,
I pulled so many all-nighters, and
I am now in a sorority (Sigma Kappa <3)

I have been so over my head that I have just been able to update my tumblr. I managed to organize my entire life in my planner, except my blog. I do not know whether to make this personal or just about things that interest me. I think I will just make this about my life, what interests me, and anything on my mind that day :)  So let's begin with a fresh start!

I am

I am the WORST at blogging. I forget then see if stuff happens then like days go by and I have so much to say that it is impossible to write it all down. I need to just do lists of what happened to me.

Sigma Kappa: Welcome to PerfΣKtion

So. This whole weekend I did rush. Only a few knew. I kept every document and piece of paper I have to remember such a life changing weekend. I almost made the mistake of wanting other sororities, but God basically made it easy and sent me one. Sigma Kappa. They are beautiful women and accept me even with all the energy I have.  When I put them in my bottom picks, they chose me. They saw the person I am and do not fit a cookie cutter image. They are beautiful girls with big hearts and awesome personalities. When I got the call that Sunday morning, my heart sunk since only one sorority wanted me. But turns out, it was the only sorority I wanted and they wanted me and knew I belonged there all along. I went in with one view and came out a real person. My pi chi even ended up being in sigkap! My handbook is right next to my Lilly notebook. (Finally found the perfect use for it) I feel so motivated to do great and better than before. This sorority is going to embody everything I am and I am completely grateful. Light is always at the end of the tunnel. I love those ladies and it is only my first day <3 Cannot wait for Saturday!

Obsession Time: Kiel James Patrick

So I get that giddy feeling when I find something I truly want. I firmly believe you cannot have an obsession of the week/month/year. It is an obsession of the moment. So that is what I will do. Show my obsessions from movies,music,clothes, jewelry,and anything that comes to me.  You never know when inspiration will hit!

So to start : Kiel James Patrick. I am certainly indulging in my preppy side with this brand. THe nautical and preppy feel is just so perfect for everyday wear. The little touches on each piece is so intricate and feels personal. You can even pick the button you want on the bracelet and the plaid on the inside !

The Skinny Fit Rockwell in Berkshires bracelet is something I truly covet for my stack. After reading about the concept of stacks on College Prep's blogger, it makes sense and it is something I unintentionally did for years. Just never had a name for it! The slime fit would be perfect to give that chic and casual vibe to my stack. And the names of them are just so perfect! Totally want! Can't decide if I want this one or 

The Linnys Palms Hammock (which certainly does remind you of summer)

or

The Daisy Buchanan

or even The Mariner and Cape Poge Bay bracelet. I see this being the most doable since I will want to make the button the color of the sorority I decide to join (Find out tomorrow!)

Now I love headbands and bows. My headband collection has its own drawer and is starting to rival Blair Waldorf's. After looking at the Skinny Fit bracelets, I saw this adorable Vicki Jerangle Carrick headband that would be perfect for spring and summer! It is just so cute and looks comfy to wear. I hate the tight headbands. But yet again, like I did with the bracelets, I looked and found another headband that caught my eye! 

The Grace Kelly. An established name for a headband. It gives off that royal and fun vibe with the flowers and that pop of bright blue! Plus the touch of plaid on the inside is so cute! 

My Birthday list is going to be quite particular this year by the looks of it! Don't forget that accessories are meant to be expressive and make you happy!

I have a lot of explaining to do

So I am figuring out how to structure this blog. I want to make it something great and fun with tidbits and cute things to look at.  I think I will do a daily column of my obsession of that moment,song,thought/quote,song,picture. Other articles will be random, but cute articles either giving my advice, detailing my day, or even my favorite characters from books or movies. We will se lovelies <3

Lovely Magazines

At the moment…this is my life on weekends. When I am not bogged down with homework, I am sitting with a cup of coffee and a magazine. Magazines honestly have such impact on our lives. We read them for tips and trick, fashion ideas, the stories, and even just to see the pretty ads of the industry. Magazines are like a time capsule for that moment in the life of women. They date the changing fads and the changing of how women are seen with sex and empowerment-driven articles. Of course there is still the “How to get a guy” type articles, but then on the next page is how to throw a party, then how to succeed at work. They capture the powerful and beautiful essence of women as a whole. Diverse and lovely with a little bit of sass :)


(image from princess-ju.tumblr.com)

Ok that was a lie...

So I realized that leaving Blogger is a lie. What I will be doing is reformatting this blog to be about pictures,ideas,quotes, that I get from tumblr and my own viewings and discussing them and their significance to me. Then there will be posts about significant things that happen to me or things I would like to document. I put too much design time into this thing to let it go to waste!

Oh well....

Sorry guys...but blogging is too time consuming! I am going to my tumblr!

http://greeneyesandpearls.tumblr.com/

follow! you wont regret!!! <3

Summer bucket list

New York Bucket List

so i am starting my bucket list for the summer and will continually edit this post :)

Obsession Time

So this is a Lilly Pulitzer dress that I am so want :) It is called the Bowen Dress and I want it for spring.

The Kate Spade necklace and the bangle are adorable :) 

and finally....The Valentine's Day suggestions for Tiffany as so cute :) 

What are your obsessions of the week? 

‎"What happened to chivalry? Does it only succeed in 80s movie?

So I was watching Easy A (finally) and I totally squeeled when Olive brought to 80s movies and their perfect love formula. Now I was thinking of how great those movies were and how things truely need to be like that. No one girls act the way they do beucase no one acts romantic anymore. The good guys and girls talk to each toher about their problems and don't realize they like each toher and are too proud to admit it. Then they sulk and think they don't like each other so they end up being with people who don't appreciate them. So that has been my life for quite a bit this week. But in all honesty, I am fine with it. good things happen for a reason. Things in general happen for a reason. So you never know when ......

This...will happen to you :) Keep your heads up high girls and boys! 

One thing that peeves me off

So does anyone have an uncomfortable feeling when they see a girl with a backpack and a purse? I don't know why, but it just bothers me. I believe in the less is more theory. If you need your backpack for class, bring a small cosmetics bag and put it in your bag, or get a cute tote for your books. But having a chunky backpack and then a big purse just makes me thing of a bag lady. It is not a cute look. consolidate ladies. SOrry that was a rant but I saw it all over campus today and it will probably not end.

A picture is worth a thousand words

So I think I am going to do this thing where I post my favorite picture of that moment in time and then will explain why.

These are my parents. This picture was taken when I won a significant award and the paper did a spread on me. I love my mom and dad so much. If it was not for them, I know I would not be as successful as I am at this age. They are the type of parents that built their lives to give their child what they never had. They are both so hardworking and loving. My mom is my rock and my dad is my protector. I cannot even continue because I think i am going to cry (lol). It is my second night away from home for spring semester and I miss them very much. I love you, mommy and daddy.

Day Before Spring Semester

So today was filled with more and more unpacking, frosting cupcakes for my Catholic Students Association meeting, and organizing. Things picked up at 9pm when I had my meeting. It was honestly the highlight of my day and will probably be for the next three Mondays. We met everyone who will be on the retreat team and found out our partners. In other words, I met everyone who I will be working with and got to meet my partner who I will be conducting a small group with. He is really sweet and is very nice. Quiet, but nice. In more important news, the guy that I like and I had great chemistry today. He asked me to sit next to him and agreed to play piano for me for the coffeehouse.

So there is a point in bringing this guy into my blog now. I honestly am so excited. I feel like I am in high school and really super wish the guy I like likes me too. It is so funny and I do not mind actually feeling giddy and cute. I think more people should get this feeling instead of wanting just sex and to just hook up. That giddy feeling needs to come alive again. Moments like these need to be alive again. Because moments like this start with the giddiness and the world needs love and happiness.

Nausea

Did you ever get that feeling of being sick to your stomach when you see something? Well call this high school, but my roommates all just became sisters on facebook....and I thought the girl who lives in my room was my best friend. Oh well. Guess I will have more time to focus on school and my activities. I am not jealous, but since the problems I have been dealing with, I just feel like a stranger in my own apartment and I will be with the girl that wanted to have me leave all day. Thank god I will hardly be at the apartment. I think I may join another club or just become more activity in the ones I am in, since I am taking 6 classes. I am sorry if I sound really cryptic, but I just get upset sometimes since I am the type of person who would do anything for anyone....and then I get "pushed over" because they take advantage and never do stuff for me. Like it is uneven.  Idk...maybe I am late night rambling...but it just hurts. On to new and bigger and better things. Night world <3

Last night of winter break

So being home from school has honestly made me appreciate my life so much. I am so grateful for my family and all they do for me. I would be lost without them. I have a group of friends that i am tight with and they are all guys. It is so much easier to just relax and kill zombies on a Saturday night then go out and drink and party with girls who end up turning into hot messes. I like to go out to dance,but I am done with nights full of drama. But most importantly, I love my mom. I vow to be the best teacher I can be so I can buy things for my mom and show her her hard work paid off. This break was just filled with the holiday spirit,ful times with friends,a lot of snow, food, the finishing of the Gossip Girl tv show,the start of Greek, my first yoga mat, and just the start to a great and happier me. Especially with my new Lilly notebook. I will post pictures of my great finds of today. Tomorrow I am baking cupcakes as a thank you to the CSA Spring Retreat group. They have been by me for so long and I def. owe them :) Time to reorganize the planner and pack up the car...tomorrow is Rutgers Move In Day for Spring 2010.

Movies I want to see this year:

Red Riding Hood

Jane Eyre

Your Highness (James Franco <3)

Crazy,Stupid,Love

The Smurfs

The Help

To be continued...

The Great Gatsby...tote?

I want. I want. I want.

kate spade. The Great Gatsby. yellow tote. This is so just a figment of my imagination. <3

True Prep Response

http://www.thecollegeprepster.com/2010/09/true-prep.html

So as I was reading College Prepster's blog, I did a google search for the NY Times review of  True Prep by Lisa Birnbach. Funny story...I have The Official Preppy Handbook that was cowritten by her in 1980. I have an original copy that I picked up at my high school's garage sale. I saw it and could not resist since I could not tell if it was a joke or serious. Here is my book :)

 I then see in the article this book can be between $100 to even $1000. I cannot believe that! It is amazing...and could be a lot of ballet flats for spring. i just found that exciting :) Here is the article http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/30/books/30book.html?_r=1 . You never know what you find at garage sales!

But this got me to thinking that I need to buy a Kindle or a Nook because I need to buy books instantly. It is a necessity.  I need to get True Prep. 

Influences

I firmly believe that your environment influences you. Hence, why I am a mess at this current moment.

Living in New Jersey has given me many things I am lucky to have. I have been around many cultures and different personalities that have helped em to developed proper social manners in situations. I have a wonderful family with strong Italian morals and my friends all have goals in life. However...

I am not confused about my future or even school for that matter...it is more along the lines of my (for lack of a better word) "stereotype". Now do not judge at first, let me explain. I am 19 years old and am not saying I want to be what the younger kids are nowadays. I went through my phases. Puberty is over haha. But what I mean is, my style is not yet defined as nicely as I would like. I am influences by my music,movies, and fashion (obviously). I just do not know where my personality fits. Now I am not saying I want to be boring and cookie cutter, but I like to be set in stone and feel comfortable with my style, not having to guess who I want to be today. It is fun to dress up, but I want my definite style. So far, college has certainly helped refine my style and I submitted to my mother's advice of dressing more proper. As in, just because it is winter does not mean I have to wear uggs and sweats all the time. (In my defense it was high school and thats how we dressed). But now I am in my spring semester of my sophomore year at college. From studying to activities, I do not have time to think of how I want to expressive my personality today through clothes. I know this sounds confusing...but here is an example:

I want to dress girly and pretty because Legally Blonde is my favorite movie...but she wears a little too much pink. So I like rock bands and think rock chicks have an awesome style...but I am not about to get a leather jacket and biker boots. I love Blair Waldorf....but can we be real? I live in New Jersey and do not want to look like a stuck up bore....but I love the headbands. And I loveee the southern girl look with Lilly Pultzer and just that clean cut preppy look. See my problem?

So lately I have been wearing suede black boots with nice black tops,jeans, and grey boyfriend looking sweaters (I always forget the proper name). Mind you I do not look like a mess, and I dress modestly for my age and always have my hair and makeup done....but my closet gets very confusing. I think it is because I am an only child and have all boy cousins. So my only influences are pretty much in the media. And it does not help that I live in Jersey and a lot of people dress like slobs or look..."too much". The woe of this dilemma. I will have an answer by tonight. I am sure of it! Leaning towards the preppy look but with a city edge to it. Because that is what I am right now anyway.

(Yeah I know this seemed pointless, but as an English major, writing is therapeutic and helps me sort my thoughts. Also I will read what I write and go "Really? You thought that? Change that ASAP!" Try it sometime. )

New Beginnings

Well hello blog world!

I knocked down two to-do's today. I started a blog and I am going to fulfill my new year's resolution of starting a diary-type thing.

Son on Sunday I am going back to school after my winter break. Winter break was honestly something I truly needed. I felt a little lost as school. Of course I was doing my school work and my activities, but I felt like something was wrong. I think I just missed my family and living in an environment in which people truly love me. It has been a rough semester and it was just physically and mentally exhausting for nothing. It is not what you think...trust me.  However, because of these developments, I focused more on my school work and found my way to CSA. That community of people have actual morals and just awesome people and I felt at home. I went on a retreat and found my strength in God again to deal with the battles I have been faced.It made living at school a lot easier. I just can't help worrying about people but I guess I have to be done.

Exams were stressful, but getting the grades back were completely worth it. When I drove home on DEc. 23, my mom greeted me with a huge hug. I actually started to cry. What I went through is not what good people go through and it was nice to be relaxed and feel safe. I walk in my room and see a hallmark record-a-story book, a CHristmas chocolate bar, and a Starbucks hot cocoa kit. My mom truly made me feel at home.

Hanging out with friends,snowstorms,Christmas Eve, Christmas, and New Year's Eve were all surrounding with people I love and care about most. I feel rejuvenated and happy. I am ready to go back to school and work even harder that I normally do. I plan to join another organization and just truly be happy. I won't let anyone stop me. I am blessed to have friends and I am super blessed to have my family. I love them so much. Especially my mom. She is always there for me and I could never imagine having anyone else as a mother. God blessed me.

Out of everything I have been through, I learned to just be classy and never let them see you sweat. Do not go to levels lower than the one you are on. Be a lady. Stay calm and Be Classy <3