Influences

I firmly believe that your environment influences you. Hence, why I am a mess at this current moment.

Living in New Jersey has given me many things I am lucky to have. I have been around many cultures and different personalities that have helped em to developed proper social manners in situations. I have a wonderful family with strong Italian morals and my friends all have goals in life. However...

I am not confused about my future or even school for that matter...it is more along the lines of my (for lack of a better word) "stereotype". Now do not judge at first, let me explain. I am 19 years old and am not saying I want to be what the younger kids are nowadays. I went through my phases. Puberty is over haha. But what I mean is, my style is not yet defined as nicely as I would like. I am influences by my music,movies, and fashion (obviously). I just do not know where my personality fits. Now I am not saying I want to be boring and cookie cutter, but I like to be set in stone and feel comfortable with my style, not having to guess who I want to be today. It is fun to dress up, but I want my definite style. So far, college has certainly helped refine my style and I submitted to my mother's advice of dressing more proper. As in, just because it is winter does not mean I have to wear uggs and sweats all the time. (In my defense it was high school and thats how we dressed). But now I am in my spring semester of my sophomore year at college. From studying to activities, I do not have time to think of how I want to expressive my personality today through clothes. I know this sounds confusing...but here is an example:

I want to dress girly and pretty because Legally Blonde is my favorite movie...but she wears a little too much pink. So I like rock bands and think rock chicks have an awesome style...but I am not about to get a leather jacket and biker boots. I love Blair Waldorf....but can we be real? I live in New Jersey and do not want to look like a stuck up bore....but I love the headbands. And I loveee the southern girl look with Lilly Pultzer and just that clean cut preppy look. See my problem?

So lately I have been wearing suede black boots with nice black tops,jeans, and grey boyfriend looking sweaters (I always forget the proper name). Mind you I do not look like a mess, and I dress modestly for my age and always have my hair and makeup done....but my closet gets very confusing. I think it is because I am an only child and have all boy cousins. So my only influences are pretty much in the media. And it does not help that I live in Jersey and a lot of people dress like slobs or look..."too much". The woe of this dilemma. I will have an answer by tonight. I am sure of it! Leaning towards the preppy look but with a city edge to it. Because that is what I am right now anyway.

(Yeah I know this seemed pointless, but as an English major, writing is therapeutic and helps me sort my thoughts. Also I will read what I write and go "Really? You thought that? Change that ASAP!" Try it sometime. )